an arab eloping with a jew of 40 in Montana

"maybe when i have very little to do.....i am constantly ennui-ridden and useless."

"Well lingering on an internet chatroom overly much certainly won't help."

"nor is reflecting on lugubrious memories. this is not bad, you see. it rolls and i am nothing worth-while."

Questions:
{"Genuine self-loathing or feeling that every human being is intrinsically useless?"

"pretending to have a dismal life?"

"innate humor in all suffering?"}

"what blasé terms, for what odes were written about."

"All I know is that we easily turn on our gods, both the lesser and greater."

"i don't look at it so much as 'turning' on them. it's more of an ephemeral adoption of some morals at appropriate times in life, yet you can abandon them until a later time calls for them."

"that signifies that you are not respectful toward that deity's cleverness."

"why should i be "loyal" to any one deity? they are all inventions of man anyways"

"i do not see it as an invention of humanity. it is something beyond humanity's intellect, to decipher."

"but we perceived it, so it must be of our own devices that it exists."

"well, i am stunned that you think anyone truly perceived their deity. no matter what it is."

"No I don't think that, I do however think that a lot of other people think they do and most atheists believe religious people do. So it warrants explaining."

"some people fabricate a deity, perhaps because of their inability to "feel" any spiritual connection with any higher power. i think a lot of people lie to themselves, a lot of important and powerful people at that."

"Meh, I've just chosen an ancient Batavi goddess to glue my belief-system too, by want of a goddess in physical form."